archives of poetry- poem twenty one

the question is
i wonder what you see
and if you heard
what i just meant
or merely what i said.

i'm here.
that is undeniable
but what appears
in the looking glass
is not what i am
and the frayed memory
of childhood
leaves me fighting regret with my tears.

if i could,
i would change the world for you
because i see the pain in your eyes
and you know
because i love you too.

this life i'm living
has become a game
of hide and seek
but it's not fun anymore
because i've hidden so well
and everyone has forgotten
and left for home
and i'm still hiding
behind this face
that says i'm alright.

i wonder what you see
when i trust you so much
and you can't feel my tears
in your hair
when you hug me...