dear Jesus

dear Jesus, why?

I ask this question over and over again and yet I don't really want the answer.

I wanted you to do a miracle.

I prayed that sickness would not win.

And yes, I am angry at you, Jesus because I cannot reconcile everything that's going through my head. I want to punch my pillow and scream for you to bring Christy back and I want to be able to tell her boys that this is all a terrible joke and that their precious mother will soon be home.

But I choke on these words as they mingle with tears in the back of my throat.

My head knows that there is a reason for Christy's swift passing and that you are sovereign and that you are holding her family in the crook of your arm.

But in my heart of hearts, I cannot see past the inky, black shroud of darkness and I only feel destitute and broken and so, so incredibly sad.

I know that it's not about me or my earthly desires and shallow wants.

It's about you, Jesus- simply and purely you.

It's about you on that cross and in that darkness with the weight of all the sin of the world on your shoulders. It's about you staring death in the face and winning anyway.

dear Jesus, I don't understand and I have learned that that's ok.

So, thank you for allowing my paths to cross with those of the kind and beautiful @christybowlby.

people of the world

people of the world... i've got some messages for you straight from my heart... i have been doing this for some time but decided to keep track of them in blog posts... so here goes:

dear people of the world. i love you. pboone

dear people of the world. you are valuable and you are loved. pboone

dear people of the world. forgive yourself. move on. love. pboone

dear people of the world. give up on bitterness. exchange it for kindness. love. a fellow traveler. pboone

dear people of the world. do your dream. love.pboone

dear people of the world. eat candy. be happy. love. pboone

dear people of the world. vote loudly. speak softly. love. pboone

dear people of the world. it's not going to be easy. do it anyway. love. pboone

dear people of the world. grab a hand and give it a squeeze. love. pboone

dear people of the world. just a friendly reminder. Jesus is bigger than coffee cups. love. a fellow coffee drinker. pboone

dear people of the world. when you find a friend (a real one) do everything it takes to keep it. "greater love has no one than this: that a man lay down his life for his friends". just saying. pboone

dear people of the world. stop being angry. love Jesus. love others. be kind. that is all. pboone

love. a traveler in time. pboone

It's Been Awhile

so, i kind of fell off the regular blogging wagon sometime around the middle of 2012. yeah, and i fell so far that it took me three times to remember the name of my blog. with this being said, i want to make a commitment to blog more regularly.

recently, a friend and i started write night roanoke. we meet at the local library on every monday night to write together. this weekend and today more specifically, we are participating in our first annual write-a-thon: 24 hours of writing to celebrate NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). we are all working on different projects and chilling together in a great space. 

as a lot of you know, i get most of my inspiration for writing from my one word, one topic exercise in which i have my facebook friends comment on my post with one word. that one word becomes the topic of my piece of writing. the first person who comments is the topic that i must use. if you are my friend on facebook, feel free to take part in the fun. after i write the piece, your name be posted as the inspiration.

back to my blog commitment, i would like to post a substantial work at least once a month. also, i have started this "people of the world" project on facebook and i plan to start this project on my blog, as well.

please join me in this journey as a traveler in time.