waiting on a train

i never thought the leaves would change
the sky is real, more real than pain
and as the colors start to merge
the fear becomes a shroud of courage

introspection falls like rain
the leaves and moon begin to wane
worlds collide for just an instant
why are my thoughts so resistant

time goes by, the landscapes blend
the train comes down the track again
i cannot find my soul's refrain
no calming thoughts, no endless rain

my troubled spirits, the leaves demise
dissolve beneath the bitter lies
the end has come, the train is leaving
my heart seems dead but i'm still breathing